From my notepad

Dear beloved warriors. My name is Pastor Nick. I was born in The Netherlands, which made me a Dutch Guy. Well, that's what has been my nickname while I was moving in other countries, "The Dutch Preacher". Hmm.. wonder why, maybe because since Johan Maasbracht, there were no Dutch Evangelist or Dutch Preacher moving around the world.
Actually, that was never my goal or my desire in life before. My life before I met Christ, was just a typical non-believer life, which filled with goals to be successful, rich, and happy.


I was born in non-believer family, and we used to stay in Pennsylvania for period of time. That moment, my family was busy in their goals of life as well, and as little kid, I was searching a "play-date". I found mine, deep in the forest near our house, I would go there everyday, and start to speak with the spirits, whom I thought was my play-date. Sometimes I could spend 10-12 hours just to be in the middle of the forest, and be involved with this spiritual world. This keep on happen until we move back to the Netherlands. And as teenager growing up, I started to search something that would make my existence in the world meaningful. There I started to learn about Martial Arts.Why Martial Arts you may ask? Since this fighter were mighty, strong and has no fear of anything, I thought that was a person I need to be. So I got deeply involved in Martial Arts training. I studied under many teachers, among them are Indonesian, who taught me deeply about spiritual world. I began to got more an more deeply attracted to this spiritual stuff. That was the reason that I learned about meditation, ncedentalism, yoga, tai chi, and many new age teaching.

As for martial arts, I have mastered kung fu, ji jiut-su, tae kwon do, kung tao, wrestle, kick-boxing, thai-boxing, pankras, judo, karate, and whole list of martial arts discipline. I worked very hard in my training, at least 8 hours every day, I will train and learn more and more about this martial arts. I got so deeply involved, even until my skin smell like sulfur. I became a very hard person, no emotion, and easily to get irritated. I hang out with gangsters, mafias, even owned my own collection of gun, bombs and other stuff. For me, I was so satisfied of who I am those moment. I have no fear at anyone, and I can face anything.

Until one day, I got into a street fight with someone, but when I almost hit my opponent down, that person cried out the name of JESUS. Strangely that person was not even a christian, but that name surely brought me out of my trance. I began to think, that this JESUS name has a power, more than what I have learned and knew. Remember, I trained very hard and very serious.Short stories, I realized that JESUS has more for me than martial arts world to offer. He offered me peace of mind, feeling of acceptance and most of all love. A moment I was totally down and wanted to end my life, God has visited me and said that :"Even though nobody loves you in this world, even though you cannot love yourself anymore, I love you." That moment, broke every hardness in my life. I accepted JESUS as my saviour and my only Master.God has asked me to follow Him, leave everything behind, and give all myself to Him. I tell you, that was not the easiest, but one of the best decision I have ever make in my life.

My second best decision is when I've decided to marry my half, Bianca. She has been my helper and my best friend (after Jesus of course...) in my life this past years. We've been blessed by Levy and Kimberly, our precious children, and many friends in the ministries.

Beloved brothers and sisters, I do hope after you read my intro, you feel nothing else than be blessed, and be encouraged, that if a life of someone like me, a life that has been broken, crashed and damaged can be restored by God and not only restored, but can be a blessing to other people, be sure that nothing our God cannot handle. There's no life to hard, no past to dark and no heart to difficult to experience God's love and presence.